I honestly still can’t believe I’m typing these words – WE’RE HAVING A BABY GIRL!
For so long I wasn’t sure I would ever be able to say those words. Growing up as an only child, the only relationship I knew was my mom and I. I had always dreamed of having a little girl of my own one day to share that bond with. It’s crazy to say, but from the second I found out I was pregnant there was something in my gut that told me this was my girl. I wasn’t sure at first if it was just me hoping that it would be, or if this was really my intuition talking. I didn’t want to admit it to myself because I was so afraid of being disappointed if I was wrong, although another little boy would be just as sweet!! With Chase, I genuinely had no clue or gut feelings either way! I was totally shocked when we did our gender reveal with him and saw blue!
As the weeks went on, I became more and more anxious to find out what this little baby was! I was counting down the days until I did my 12 week blood work where we could find out the gender! The week before my appointment I had the most incredibly vivid dream about a baby girl. Everything around me was pink and there was this person in my dream whispering to me that it was the little girl I had prayed for. When I woke up I again wasn’t sure if this was just a crazy pregnancy dream or if it really was a sign.
The morning that I was supposed to go for my 12 week ultrasound and blood work the hospital called me and told me Ryan was no longer able to come. It’s really a bummer this time to have to do everything on my own. Ryan never missed a single one of my doctor’s appointments, so this has been really hard for him. It seems so unfair in a world where you can go to a restaurant maskless but not your wife’s high risk appointments. Nevertheless, I still couldn’t wait to see my growing baby on the ultrasound. It sounds so crazy, but the second I saw the ultrasound I felt like it was a girl. Still, I tried to convince myself I had no clue and to stop guessing, that in less than a week we would all know what this sweet baby was! Either way it would be amazing and what was meant for us.
I did my blood work on Monday afternoon, and by Friday my patience was wearing out so I decided to just call the hospital to check up on it and see if they had received it back from the lab. The sweet nurse on the phone told me it wasn’t in and that I could expect it by NEXT THURSDAY! Total bummer but I had to be patient for another week or so. That day I was particularly exhausted, so when I put Chase down for this late afternoon snooze I decided to lie down too. As soon as I was dozing off my phone rang with a Maryland caller ID. I almost sent it to voicemail since I was way too tired to deal with a telemarketer on a Friday evening. I reluctantly answered the phone and it was the nurse from that morning introducing herself and letting me know she had my results. I literally sat straight up in my bed and my heart started racing. She delivered the most important news first, our baby’s blood work came back great and all the tests were negative – best news ever! She then said “…And I have the gender. Do you want to know?” Now, my plan was to have the hospital send my results over to my OB’s office so I could go pick up the envelope and open it then. Ryan and I weren’t sure how we wanted to find out, but I know I certainly hadn’t planned on finding out over the phone. There was just something in me though that couldn’t say no! I was home alone, the baby was napping and Ryan was working and scheduled to be home in about 2 hours. It was the perfect opportunity to find out alone and really let the news sink in.
After a long pause I answered the nurse and told her I would like to know the gender results. She asked me very sweetly if “I had any guesses”. I told her no (even though I did but who wants to be wrong?!) but that I already have a little boy. After a long pause she asked me if I was ready and said “You’re having a baby girl”. This moment will always be etched in my brain as one of the best moments of my life. It was like I knew it all along, yet I still could not comprehend the words coming out of her mouth. I immediately started sobbing and she wished me good luck and told me to have a good weekend. It took me about 10 minutes to stop crying and get myself together. As soon as I hung up, I grabbed my phone and turned my camera on to record my reaction – this was a moment I wanted to remember and be able to show my kids one day. I knew that by not doing a “gender reveal” this time I wouldn’t be able to capture that moment, especially being alone. I’m so glad I turned my camera on while I absorbed the news and I will always cherish that video.
Once the shock wore off I decided to get up and try to make it special and surprise Ryan for when he got home. A few weeks ago, I had ordered this huge black balloon off of Etsy that said “Little brother or little sister?” because although we had decided to find out the gender privately, I still wanted to do something special for him. I filled the balloon with the pink confetti (still could not believe it) and called my sweet neighbor to see if she had a pump of some sort handy. She ran over a little hand held pump and 15 minutes later my arm was numb but the balloon was ready and waiting!
It felt like eternity until Ryan got home but finally he walked in the door and I told him the doctor had called and we had to pop the balloon to find out the gender. We set up a tripod and popped the balloon together as a family. Seeing how excited Ryan was truly brings tears to my eyes. I’m so happy that we have this special moment on video with just the three of us.
The next day I ran out to party city to get more pink balloons that Chase could hold to tell both of our parents that we were expecting a baby girl. Needless to say they were all over the moon with excitement for us and many happy tears were shed that weekend! I’ll share all these little clips on my IG.
I feel like the luckiest mama in the world to have two healthy babies, a sweet little boy and precious baby girl on the way. It has always been my dream to experience what it would be like to have a daughter, and I feel completely blessed that I have been so lucky 2x over. Thinking about Chase being a big brother to a baby sister makes me want to cry!
This is truly a dream come true for me and I can’t wait to meet my sweet baby girl. We already love her so very much and are counting down the days until she is in our arms!